Hi dear blog :)
Im back here once again when I've tonnes of things to say...
Sometime ago, i applied for transfer from NTU engine to NUS FASS..
Today I received the decision.. once again,
FAILED.
AGAIN. time and again the result is still the same.
i always say i get the feeling of numbness when i receive such stuff
but hai. not having seen the familiar regimental-looking white letter with the orange heading
theres still the feeling of disappointment.
feeling sad is one thing. feeling indignant is another.
i would feel less indignant if I felt that the selection criteria is fair to me.
2 weeks ago, a friend of mine who also applied for transfer
from NTU too.. Engine too.. (shant name who it is tho.)
told me that she received an email telling her to email her results to NUS when she receives it.
I DID NOT GET THAT EMAIL!
WTH?! does that mean that I wasnt considered at all, since the time when i applied for transfer?! HOW THE HELL IS THIS FAIR TO ME?
last time when I worked at NUS LAW,
I managed a conference. during which i needed to send emails to professors about updates regarding the conference. I understand how HUGE a matter it is to leave someone out! when they email you to tell you their colleagues received emails and they havent, IT SEEMS LIKE YOU ARE TRYING TO MAKE THEM COME UNINVITED. HOW COURTEOUS!
damn. and its happening to me. shyt. aiyah. sorry about the profanities. trying to be calm but obviously am not.
you
the BEST thing is that, when i emailed the person, his response was damn chin chai. "you may submit your transcripts if you feel will aid in your entry to the university" (smth like that) its sounds so like. "YOU WANT YOU SEND LOR."
SMACK HIMM MAN. damn. i need to chill. I mean. in my friend's email, it sounds like you MUST email it in order for the uni to consider you but for mine is like. "YOU WANT YOU SEND LOR". DAMN.
i feel that their selection criteria is a "black process" no one explains to you why you have failed. (they prolly on judge based on A Levels) when you go down to NUS, they simply redirect you to many many other ppl telling you you can only email to make an appointment with them and come back another day. when you email these people, they give you very chao shuai responses in their email and you dont wanna meet you(well but they dont say it).
What I want is simply an honest explanation. just meet me to tell me! if you cant even do smth simple like that, does it mean there's smth wrong with the selection process?
making someone harbour hopes when she has none, is what they have always done. THIS IS DOWNRIGHT DESPICABLE.
