HAI. today i pon-ded band for the very first time (NUS Band)
then i suddenly realised im at another crossroad.
TSK. hate stuff like that..
i dont know if i should play for my next concert..
its so weird to not do anything on thursdays...
like. for all my past thursdays there isnt one where im not in NUS.
even if theres no band, im always just there for something...
it just feels weird to not be in the place.
But Mr Ho will be so disappointed..
but.. every sem is a new challenge
because the flute section changes so much.. its like every sem, half of your section changes.
and. its tiring to have to learn to work with a new set of people..
sometimes its really hard to find the "MUO QI" esp when you dont have a long history togther.
take it that im lazy! but ya.. im still someone who doesnt like change..
i dont like the feeling of having something that can potentially slip away to eventually do.
its just sad.
i dont have the confidence that we'd all be as close if we stop band-ing..
i mean. they are at least 2 years older than me, things like "if we have to be less closer, then. thats it, life is like that" might go through their minds.. i hate to feel like im the only one holding on to everything..
i think im not la.. but still. knowing that it might potentially go that direction is scary.
BUT theres no control over who plays in which sem..
i just miss the Austria trip flute section :) that was the best section ever :)
best in terms of everything :)
